Socially awkward.

Feeling uncomfortable and out of place in social settings is not uncommon for me. 

Funny to think that someone that can talk to just about anyone could be socially awkward, but so many times. I walk away and think, did I talk too much? The answer 8 out of 10, is probably, "yes".

Social media has been a great outlet in that socially awkwardness. Knowing people and making small talk with those that I am "friends" with on "Facebook" or follow on Instagram, helps to initiate conversation through a post, etc. they have shared.

I have been on Facebook since 2009. I thought it was wonderful at the beginning and posted many stories about my guys that now pop up in my memories. Some just too cute to think how little they were at one time and to have captured some of those moments with this type of forum to reflect on them now that they are young grown men.

Although, I enjoy the memories and have loved using social media as a way to express myself, in which, I have been showered with reactions and supporting comments. I have also found myself open to criticism from some.

I've decided recently, to downsize my Facebook "friends" list. I have removed many "connections", in which so many should be called and not "friends". It always seemed kind of silly to call someone a "friend" that you have never met and may never meet. Seems also silly to call someone a "friend", that wouldn't speak to you at a function, let alone the local grocery store. 

Downsizing my Facebook has opened the opportunity to connect with family members, friends that do not live close, and many Moms of Marines that I have networked with and have developed love for, some I have met and hugged and others I have not, but they have always shown support and vice verse.

It's "downsizing" and not "Unfriending", as many were not truly my friends in the first place. We were connections.

So, social awkwardness and all, I'm hoping to have connections and friendships like I did before 2009. Back before social media decided that people we hadn't seen since high school or only knew from a brief conference, or gathering were "friends".